✨personal update✨ if y’all follow me on twitter you know i r..
Added 2023-01-15 22:50:53 +0000 UTC✨personal update✨ if y’all follow me on twitter you know i recently was at the hospital, again. too much stress, too much anxiety. this is the third time that my anxiety has landed me in the ER. i’m okay now, like, i’m doing better. but i just need to get to the root of what’s causing me so much anxiety. i need to learn how to manage my stress in a healthy way.i think a lot of it stems from the pressure i feel for my work, and how no matter how hard i work, i still can’t quite seem to stay afloat. ever since october, i just have been so hard on myself bc i can’t seem to grow on here which i need for survival. i am not going anywhere, but your patience during this time means a lot. i want to feel truly inspired and passionate again, and i can almost see the light at the end of the tunnel, for me to feel that way again. i’m just still not quite there and i hate creating when i don’t feel completely inspired.. if i don’t do a VM monday tomorrow, i just am taking care of myself so i can be refreshed. it really does feel like i’m drowning lately, thinking so harshly of myself,, so the grace/patience/belief/support is what is motivating me to not give up on my goals for the year. just a lil bit of patience, will do so much. i get so many kind messages from people who believe in me, and it’s really helping. y’all have no idea how much it means the fucking WORLD to me. even if i don’t have any new fresh content for awhile, my DMs are still open to chat or check in, or even to tell me about yourself and how you’re doing. so please, always feel free to send me a message and i’ll be so stoked to hear from you!!!! i just need to take it easy. i want to like myself again, and i want y’all to love me. 🥺💓💓
