I hate that I'm a smoker and have been for over a decade. It..
Added 2023-03-18 05:00:06 +0000 UTCI hate that I'm a smoker and have been for over a decade. It's my least favourite quality of myself. I've gone through many polarities from it's medicine to it's destroying the fabric of my reality. Neither is true. I just smoke. And I do it because it's a coping mechanism. And a distraction. The more I simplify things, often the easier they are to resolve. And just being honest about it being an addiction gives me a way less bullshitty road ahead. I can try and reason with myself all I want. Or I can just do the thing.
