In many ways, I genuinely feel different. How to put a lived..
Added 2023-02-16 05:02:10 +0000 UTCIn many ways, I genuinely feel different. How to put a lived experience of that into words feels like describing a dream, but I look at it like a shaking hand that slowly finds its way to steady. It may look and feel the same, but how it performs and the quality with which can be entirely new. And while I haven't 180-ed my entire personality, I can honestly say that the impending doom I felt for the majority of my previous 30 years has radically lifted. It still whispers, but those whispers don't send me into spirals. I haven't had one in quite some time... Was it the ayahuasca? Was it the ibogaine? Was it therapy? Was it Mexico? Was it the pandemic? Was it the jobs I lost? Was it the friend that died? Was it the first fringe break up? Or the second? Or was it the first primary breakup? Or the second? It's all. And none. Everything is a result of all the experiences we have. Our tapestry ever evolving. Even as it gets longer, we can only go forward stitch by stitch.
