I'm beyond upset. One of my most generous subscribers repeat..
Added 2023-03-30 09:11:04 +0000 UTCI'm beyond upset. One of my most generous subscribers repeatedly abuses me. He's generous and sweet one day and then the next he tells me how disappointed he is in me. Telling me that I don't chat enough, don't reply quickly enough and that I'm inconsiderate of the feelings of others (Oh the irony there) I keep forgiving and chalking it up to misunderstandings and his own demons. But today, he asked me if I'm pregnant. Out of the blue... And anyone who knows me knows that I'm very self-conscious. I'm not happy with my body, with my weight and it does take a lot for me to put myself out there for the world to see. Yes, my tummy is not flat, I have some soft areas that I don't like. In fact, there is very little that I like about my body. There are pics that I love and there are pics that I hate (most of them). It's a continuous struggle with self-acceptance and love. It fucking hurts when somebody who says he cares about me just straight without reasoning asks me something like that. I can be very sensitive, especially when it's about my body. I can no longer keep this in and had to share it. I get trolls, I get insults all the time, but this one is bizarre. He probably is in the top 3 spenders for the past 2 months, yet he chooses to repeatedly drag me down and then apologise. PS He also partially caused my meltdown when I deleted my social media posts...
