Do you have any idea how good getting fat must feel? We give..
Added 2025-03-05 20:54:02 +0000 UTCDo you have any idea how good getting fat must feel? We give up our fitness, our conventional attractiveness - on purpose. We go to great effort and great expense to forcibly un-sculpt our bodies. We make ourselves uncomfortable - physically and otherwise. We enter into this knowing it won’t be easy. As our reflections begin to change, we manage the thrill - suppressing it just enough so it won’t scare us back to the straight sizes but not so much we cant still be high on it 24/7. As our skin begins to stretchmark, we tremble at the terrifying permanence of this. As our bellies begin to hang, as thick double chins settle in, we grapple with the unavoidable fact that this delicious, shameful little kink can't be kept to the bedroom. We walk around, bulging with fresh tender fat like it's the most illicit act imaginable. A heavy belly rubbing against the clinging front of a tight tshirt feels like public indecency. And yet we eat and eat and eat - the changes speed up, grow more intense, the fluster intensifies. We're mortified, panicked, exhilarated, and everything in between. We're overcome by the strain of obesity, by the thunder of a heart that cant decide between excitement and horror, coated in thick, thick, thickening fat. And eating, eating, eating, because nothing feels as hot as growing fat.
